I actually googled "searching for God" as if i'm searching for Him on the internet. And I came up with this... Searching for God Knows What by Donald Miller.
Donald Miller is a Christian author who wrote a book Blue Like Jazz. A book that I read maybe 2 years ago. I would classify his books as post-modern Christian writing. I would like to see what this book is about... I like the author. He speaks more my language.
I'm in sort of a crisis, which prompted me to google "searching for God". In exercising, sometimes you can plateau and not lose weight for a while. I think it's the same with Christian faith. It's great to truck along... but sometimes I have to stop myself and think what is this all about... then comes the plateau.
To be honest, I do get depressed and have some anxiety issues. (Reason why I stay up at nights.) I've never been to the doctor for this (knock on wood) as I've always sought God and His Word... But I feel the challenge isn't there now to pursue Him as intensely, and I'm not sure why.
I blame myself for not really grounding myself in a church. I've been to a whole bunch in the Charlotte; and I always feel somewhat guilty that I can't seem to find one that I can be a part of. As JFK says, "Ask not what your country can do for you. Ask what you can do for your country." It's somewhat the same application in regards to people and the church. People go to church expecting God to serve them and fix their problems. And in due time, God can help you with problems. But people are taught to feed themselves, and not being spoon fed, so it's really our responsibility to learn to feed ourselves of God's teachings. And in turn, serve God in the church and not let church or God serve you. We were made to serve others... And not expect anything in return.
It's a balancing act for me... How much can I really do? It's hard to find something to feed myself though. It's easier to be in fellowship for some of the feeding time. But scheduling and what-not seems like a challenge now, as I am always gone on weekends for work and work late. Very frustrating. Where can one get religion in this fast paced society?
I haven't given up. And I won't give up. So, maybe one way to fill up some time and feed myself is to find something I already have. Like this book, An Unstoppable Force by Erwin McManus. God bless him, he went to UNC Chapel Hill. :) It's about building up the church. Maybe I will gain some insight in this book. I haven't picked up the book; it was given to me a long while ago.
And maybe I will pick up Donald Miller book at some point from the bookstore. It looks interesting.
1 comment:
Hey Josey girl :) I read Blue Like Jazz too and really liked it. Everyone goes through those dry spots where we don't feel very close to God. But I'm so glad He's there whether I feel like He is or not. :) Besides the obvious of spending regular 1 on 1 time with God, something most of us struggle with, there is another great book I read recently. And one of the main things it did was make me feel so much closer to Jesus. It was so good I didn't want the book to end. Have you read The Shack? I don't usually read fiction very often, but this is a really great read and very worth my time. I even have an extra copy I could mail you if you like. :) Mom, Amber, Josiah, and several other friends have read it too.
P.S. - I'm just starting a blog site myself! :)
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